its time for this holiday of mine to really, really take flight. after consulting a friend on the phone, i've come to the conclusion that i really take things too seriously. its not always the greatest thing in the world being nice to people. why do you bother, thomas, about volatile mood swings, about friends who make better acquaintences, about investing so much in something which becomes increasingly transitory in nature? don't get me wrong, i really love you guys. i love my family. i've much to be thankful for this Christmas. i've so, so much to be thankful for, and i am. but i can't, i just cannot continue digging a hole that will hold out of this vast ocean before me. not for now, at least.

see you guys when i get back. till then, enjoy your holidays!