everytime i open my internet browser im brought straight to the Apple website (www.apple.com) where im treated to a bevy of drool-worthy techtoys, like the latest Macbook Pro range of notebooks. the latest range is pimped out with the Intel Core 2 Duo processor and a dual-layer DVD combodrive, while retaining much of the lustre it had when the first generation was introduced several months ago. im using the, uh, 2nd or 3rd revision of the macbook pro range, and while its not Core 2 Duo outfitted or DL dvd compatible, it still packs a solid punch and im not complaining. im just sore that this investment of mine is soon becoming obsolete. Leon the director uses a Powerbook G4 which would've set him back a good 4000 quid and less than 6 months after he bought it, the Intel range(MY range booyah) pops out and totally (and ruthlessly) rapes his notebook there and then.

well, not much of a reflection there. as i once told a reader of this blog, i blog only because i can't seem to reconcile my emotions in any other way. when everything seems to be too convoluted and i can't make any sense of it all, i blog, and i try to express the chaos in my mind as comprehensibly and succinctly as possible.

i feel really trapped, but i don't know what binds me.

like 2 of my friends, i really, really long to be free, and "just be". one of them, dreamy-eyed girl, wants to marry a cloud, and as embarrassed as i am to say this, i think i can understand where she's coming from, but i guess its really up to the different ways our minds are wired to interpret something as abstract as this.

To my dreamy-eyed friend who wants to be free, thank you for always filling my days with your smiles. may you find that cloud, and may it lift you from the shackles that you long to be free of.